Rights, shootings and the loss of my dog
It’s strange, when I feel I don’t have much to say are the moments when I do. Things have been rough lately. It started with Roe v Wade being overturned. I, along with so many other women am existing in a state of shock and disbelief that our rights can be so easily stripped away. Obviously, this is a precursor to stripping away the rights of the LGBTQIA+ community and that’s just wrong on so many levels. I can’t even with that. It’s scary. People who have been able to just be themselves and love freely are now being threatened in the streets… again, I can’t. My heart is heavy over this and I’m at a loss.
If that wasn’t enough, my sweet loving Nala girl passed away on Saturday and it wrecked me. Over the past year and a half, she lost her ability to walk and while we bought her a cart (K9 cart brand) and that gave her an amazing year and a half of life, she took a turn and we had to decide. I promised her when I adopted her that I would always be here for her and never let her suffer… I honored my word. I miss her sweet face and wish I could give her belly rubs just one more time. But no matter the pain I feel over this loss, I know in my heart I did the right thing for her and that is what matters most.
If losing my rights and my sweet pup wasn’t enough, I was 5 minutes from the Highland Park shooting when it was happening. I grew up near that area and cannot believe what happened. The fact that someone was so evil and demented that they would purchase high powered weapons and open fire in a crowd of families enjoying a parade… makes me sick. I can’t understand how this could happen. Why the hell was that crazy little fuck allowed to buy a gun in the first place? After threatening his family, the state police felt like what… he wouldn’t snap? There has to be a better way. Why are we not developing a program to scrub social media? Anyone with extreme beliefs, people who post videos etc., depicting mass murders etc., maybe they shouldn’t be allowed to have a FOID card. Maybe those people shouldn’t be allowed to buy a gun. The reality is there are a lot of mentally ill people out there and so many of them are undiagnosed. Maybe social scrubs are the way to go. I hope that crazy jerk suffers in prison… he deserves no less than that.
This brings us to today. I am sitting in my office scrolling through the Roku channels and I stumble on OAN… at first I thought I was on OWN… but when I stopped to view the channel I realized in seconds that I was in a very bad place. It was a place filled with false narratives, Trump kudos and interviews with washed up film producers who think the insurrection wasn’t a big deal and that the evil left is fighting against the good right. It took less than 2 minutes for me to throw up in my mouth a little… but I couldn’t stop. It was like watching a train wreck… impossible to divert my eyes. So, here I am, almost midnight watching some ill-informed teeny- bopper praise the right and condemn the left. I hope she wakes up one day, because following that alt right crap as a woman is the same thing as agreeing with them that we are second class citizens. All I can say to that is Fuck them, we will overcome.